Not caring can be a good thing.

Sorry for the lack of updates. Nothing much has been happening in my life and I haven't felt like writing anything. > < But lately I've been thinking a bit and so I've decided to write this entry.

Sometimes I just don't understand why some people care so much. I don't mean the kind of caring as in taking care of someone and caring for someone. I mean the kind of 'caring' where some people go out of their way to do unnecessary things and make a completely irrelevant person's life miserable.

Here's an example of some girls in my school 'over-caring' (copy and pasted from my Tumblr since I was ranting, haha):

A few days ago I was sitting with Friend A and Friend B. Friend B then went to do homework and we could see her through a balcony in the middle of the floor, so we were just fooling around like “HAIII WE CAN SEE YOU! 8D”.

Today, Friend B told me that while she was sitting there, there was a small group of girls sitting opposite her and one of the girls kept commenting loudly about me and Friend A. I don’t even know how she didn’t realise that Friend B was sitting right in front of her (almost everyone knows that me and Friend B are close friends apart from the new people). -__-

Friend B told me that the girl said “OMGGG ARE THEY LOOKING AT ME? I CAN’T TELL BECAUSE OF THEIR GLASSES LOOOLZ. WHY AREN’T THEY TALKING? OR MAYBE IT’S BECAUSE WE’RE USED TO TALKING AND THEY’RE USED TO NOT TALKING LOLZZZ. THEY PROBABLY JUST SPEND THEIR LUNCHES NOT TALKING SINCE THEY’RE THE QUIET PEEPOLZ, LOLZ!”

…Lyke whut. You know what I really dislike and find stupid? When people comment on small things I’m doing that’s not relevant to them in any way whatsoever. For example, let’s say I ate a muffin last week. Then all of a sudden some people who I don’t even talk to start telling their friends: “LOLZ GUESS WHAT, SHE ATE A MUFFIN LAST WEEK. LOLOLOLOLZ!” Uhhh ok. You must be really bored to keep reporting back the little things I’m doing to your friends (this has happened more than once). ._. People like that are the ones that spend their breaks gossiping about people to their friends instead of actually bonding with each other. What right does she have to say that I don’t talk to my friends during lunch? Even if I don’t, it’s none of her business anyway.

The rest of the girls in the group were just like “oh, lol” and not really saying anything. At least my ‘not talking’ is better than being so bored and awkward that you HAVE to comment on what other people are doing with their friends, especially when your friends aren’t even interested in your gossipy behaviour. :I

Also, just because I don’t talk to YOU doesn’t mean that I don’t talk to my friends. Stop thinking that the world revolves around you. (^This is aimed at that girl. I noticed that I kept switching between “you” and “she” so it might confuse some people. XD)
ok I’m probably kicking up a fuss over such a trivial thing but ARGH STUFF LIKE THIS GETS ON MY NERVES.

By the way, Friend B is the person I referred to as 'my best friend' in my older entries. But I don't think I'm going to call her that anymore because she's no longer trying to seclude me from everyone else and she's been acting like a proper friend. She has also stopped trying to get Friend A's attention since we're all very close now, so I guess she stopped feeling the need to impress her.

I think I'm the type of person who just doesn't care. Of course I care about my family, my friends and people/things that are important and relevant to me, but outside of that, I just don't care. Whenever my friends are complaining about the amount of homework they get and how stressed they are, they point out that I always seem so calm and carefree. It's not because I don't have any work to do. I think it's just because I don't care. At some point, I learned to not care about things that are not worth stressing over.

And I don't think it's a bad thing. In fact, I'm happy that I don't care about things irrelevant to me. It helps me become a more open-minded person, in a way. Because of my indifference, I am not subjective or bigoted.

But one thing I don't understand is why some people care so much. You know how some people make a big fuss over legalising gay marriage? I don't understand that. I don't have anything against gay marriage because it doesn't affect me. If gays want to get married, then go ahead. If not, then don't. It's not going to change my life (as a heterosexual) in anyway. So I just DON'T understand why some heterosexuals are making life more difficult for BOTH themselves and the people who want to marry those of the same sex? Why do they feel the need to go out of their way to make gay marriage illegal when it doesn't affect their lives whatsoever?

In the same way, I don't understand why the girl, whom Friend B overheard, was reporting every tiny thing I do since it was completely irrelevant to her.

And here's another short rant copy and pasted from my Tumblr:

We were moving a tennis net (it’s heavy as hell btw) across the court, one of the two girls playing netball on another court suddenly asked me in a haughty tone: “Um, what are you guys doing?”.

I just replied “Uh, moving the net?”. What did it look like we were doing? Swimming?
Then she said, “Well, then hurry up!! You’re taking AAAGEEES!!!”

I was just like “lol ok” and carried on moving the net.

Is it just me or was her comment really… so unnecessary and pointless? @_@ Why did she feel that she HAD to speak in a rude manner? We were obviously moving the net across the court - if she didn’t realise that then that’s fine, but did she just HAVE to sound so arrogant and sarcastic? We weren’t even on their court and didn’t interfere with them playing netball at all. They weren’t even playing a game. They were just throwing the ball into the hoop.

I don’t understand her way of thinking. Was she trying to start a fight? Why, because she was bored with netball? Was she trying to make me mad because I’m usually quiet so she wanted to see me angry? Was it because she was PMS-ing and decided to take it out on me because she knew that I wouldn’t retaliate? Why is she bothering to go out of her way to make such an unnecessary comment?

That girl happens to be in my physics class as well. Why is she creating such uncalled for resentment when we’ll be seeing each other in class almost every school day for the rest of the year?

Just WHY? I don’t understand why people do what they do. I don’t get it at all.

Do you see where I'm coming from? Why do some people just go out of their way doing something completely unnecessary to other people who are irrelevant to them? By not caring (ie. not giving a crap) about that one person, they're really just over-caring instead. If you hated one person, you could just ignore them instead of making life more difficult for yourself by making life more difficult for them. Why not just carry on with your life and surround yourself with happy things?

I'm still not completely indifferent to irrelevant people though. Sometimes I still care about things I shouldn't care about. I'm letting these trivial things annoy me but you know what? I'm going to learn to not care about those kind of people either. :)

Pre-Moving In!

We just moved into our new flat on Monday! ^^ My room isn't finished yet (I've decided not to paint the walls light brown after all because it would take too long and I should be focusing on schoolwork), but I'm definitely still aiming for a bright and refreshing atmosphere.

Meanwhile, here are some pre-moving-in photos! :D

On Saturday, my mom and I went to a carpet store to buy carpets (surprise!). We walked half of our way there and got off the bus next to a huge grassy field. Usually when you see rows of houses, it's always surrounded with even more houses, but the houses there just... ended there. o__o That probably made no sense. Imagining living in a house at the end of a suburban area and outside your window all you can see is a massive green field with trees! Kind of like living in the countryside. :D

It was a nice walk. We had to walk through a street which was peacefully quiet. There were no cars at all and hardly any people. Then we had to walk through this tunnel under a traintrack:

Is it just me or does it slightly remind you of the tunnel from Hayao Miyazaki's 'Spirited Away'? The tunnel was so claustrophobically dark and tiny! If you jumped while you're inside the tunnel, you'd smash right into the ceiling. :x

Here's a photo of my room before we did any refurnishing:

As you can see, it's a bit small and the flooring was pretty horrid (which is why we had to buy carpets). The edges of each windowframe was also really moudy and nasty so I scrubbed it off using some anti-bacterial wipes. Then after sticking down the new carpet:

 Looks so much better already! Much more light and airy. :D But then after all our furniture and boxes have been moved in:

T______T

Ok most of the boxes have been moved out now so it's not that bad. I have bought two fake cherry blossom branches to put in my room (as well as for my school art installation next Tuesday - I'll take some photos and blog about it if I remember), but I still need to get a vase of some kind. I also got a string of yellow Christmas tree lights for my installation, which I'll also put in my room for extra ambience.

There are still boxes everywhere that still needs to be unpacked, so my room probably won't be fully finished until maybe 2 weeks later or so. :x

And here's the view outside our living room:

Not bad, right? It actually doesn't lose to the river view we had back in our old flat. Everything looks so green despite the winter. :D

I actually planned on starting my Etsy shop this week (half-term holiday), but it looks like I won't have any time, and my wardrobe won't be put together until Sunday. I also have quite a lot of schoolwork to do. :x

I guess my next post will be about my art installation? So that's all for now, bye bye~ ^^

Moving again soon!

Heard some good news - we'll be moving out of the hostel into a flat in around a week! :D Oh and it turned out that my mom didn't complain to the manager about that rude pregnant woman because she apologised (unsincerely) later that night, so I guess there's nothing that can be done anyway. Even if my mom did complain, the woman could just say "Well I already said sorry".

I'm glad we'll be moving out of here soon. For some reason the bathroom has been smelling really bad lately, as if someone peed all over the floor or something. The smell wasn't too bad when we first moved in. We think it's probably the pregnant woman's boyfriend because all the people living down this corridor are women and women can't really pee on the floor everywhere, lol.

Once we've moved to the new flat, I want to decorate my room nicely. ^^ My old room used to just be like a storage dump and there was stuff all over the place. I want a cream-coloured carpet with coffee-brown wallpaper, then I want to place some fake plants around (real plants keep shedding leaves and soil might get everywhere, but I don't know if that's just because I'm not taking care of it properly > <). If my new room turns out great, I'll take some pictures and post them here!

I'm also thinking of starting a shop on Etsy to sell some of the dresses I don't wear anymore and maybe some hair accessories I can make. Plus I could model the clothes which sounds like a lot of fun. If it goes well, I'd like to buy a tripod and a better camera with a timer so I can just take the photos myself. And if I get orders, I can just drop off the packages on my way to/back from school. I'm really excited just thinking about it! :D I still need to think of a shop name though, or maybe I should just use a more username-y kind of name. Maybe something to do with the name "Emi" would be nice because I think it sounds so cute, haha.

I'll update again soon!

Preggy woman drama

I'm posting this using my phone because my mom is using my laptop, so I apologise for any typos or any weird auto corrects, haha.

There's a pregnant woman (probably in her 20s - she doesn't look that much older than me) who lives down the same corridor as us in the hostel. There's only 5 room in this corridor, two of which is occupied by my mom, my bro and me.

Basically, this woman is just messy and dirty. She leaves a mess in every communal room. She leaves empty food packaging and unwashed dishes all over the place. She's also very unfriendly towards everyone living down this corridor, acting as if she is superior to all of us.

Last night my mom found bundles of red hair chugged in the drain of the bathtub and the sink. The sink and walls also had splatters of a  red-purple colour. At first my mom though that someone red-haired living in the floor above came downstairs to use the bathroom (which they aren't allowed to do). She asked a Pakistani woman who lives next to us if she had dyed her hair. The woman said she didn't and came to look at the mess in the bathroom along with my mom.

Just then, the pregnant woman came into the bathroom, with newly dyed red hair (her hair used to be blond). My mom asked her if she dyed her hair and she immediately threw a temper and yelled, "DON'T FIGHT WITH ME! FUCK OFF!"

This isn't the first time I've heard that woman swear. Once she was talking to her boyfriend (who's secretly staying overnight in her room, which also isn't allowed), and she said that the kitchen "fucking stinks". Using such vulgar profanities over such little things... sigh.

Later the woman went into the kitchen and complained to someone that she was living with "fucking bitches". Ha, who's the real bitch here?

My mom said that the woman probably targeted her because we're newcomers and she thought we'd be easy to pick on. Well, she thought wrong. She picked the wrong person to mess with.

I kind of wish we were allowed to swear though (we're also not allowed to swear here). I'd swear a string of insults at that woman and see how she likes it. :d For now if she swears at us again, I'll just laugh in her face.

My mom wants to complain to the manager here about the woman's behaviour tomorrow. I'll update again if anything interesting happens.

Living in a hostel

Just an update on my family life.

My family (excluding dad) has moved out of the flat we lived in and into a hostel a few days ago. The owner of the flat (since it was rented) wanted to sell the property, and we couldn't afford to pay the rent anyway because it was getting too expensive for us. All of our furniture is packed away and stored in a warehouse, and we packed a suitcase of clothes we need for the next few weeks (no idea how long we'll be living here though).

My mom hasn't had a job for 15 years or so because she stopped working to take care of me and my brother back when we lived in China over a decade ago. My dad also doesn't have a job and he's unwilling to give us any money, so now we're trying to get help from the local council.

So yeah, we're now living in a hostel! There's a communal bathroom, kitchen and laundry room. It's almost kind of like living in a cheap hotel, or sharing a house with a group of other students in university. My brother has his own room while my mom and I share a room next-door.

It's not bad, really. I just don't really like having to share a bathroom with other people though. D: And it's a bit bothersome to have to keep locking the door everytime we leave a room. Right now I'm typing this in my brother's room because for some reason there's no WiFi in my room.

I have to take the bus to school now. It used to be just a 10-minute walk, which I really miss. XD It was so much easier than taking buses. Sometimes it's nice just walking home absent-mindedly whenever I have a migraine headache, but now I have to constantly keep a lookout for my stop. x__x I'm also getting a lot less exercise this way. Just a 10-minute walk per day equals 1 hour and 40 mins of exercise per week.

I have an important exam on Monday, Friday and the Wednesday after. I still haven't started revising because of all the moving.

I kind of miss the house we used to live in before we even moved to the flat. I miss the flat too. It felt more like home than here.

So many stacks of boxes all gone in just one day. :o

The view outside the living room and the third bedroom. Gonna miss this place. :c