Sorry for disappearing again. I don't really blog much about my life anyway these days. I don't really have much to talk about. Back when I was blogging regularly, it was because I was feeling down and wanted to write my feelings somewhere no one knows me in real life. Since not a lot of people read my blog anyway, I feel less motivated to write about other stuff.
I've been pretty happy though. ^^ I've been on Easter holiday for almost a month. I'm going back to uni in two days. Looking forward to see my boyfriend again. I miss hugging him. Life's been good.
I feel scared to talk about the good parts of my life sometimes. During my last relationship (which I've realised was pretty much an abusive relationship...), whenever I wrote about how things were calming down, more drama would happen because my ex loved to start shit. It was really exhausting.
I wrote a happy post on my Tumblr the other day, talking about how good my life is. I kept feeling very paranoid that someone (namely my ex) might read it and be all bitter about it. He'd start posting shit about my on forums like he did last time when he saw that I got a new boyfriend. People like him are pathetic.
I think I'm still traumatised by everything that happened. :/ I still feel afraid sometimes even though I shouldn't be anymore. He can't hurt me anymore. Hopefully time will heal my wounds.
I'm okay otherwise though. Around 2 months of uni left and I'll be done with my first year. :D I'm still not sure what I want to do in the future. I used to want to be an architect, but I'm not so sure anymore. The course is 7-8 years long and the starting salary isn't even that great. I can't even just do the first part of Architecture and be an architectural assistant for the rest of my life since they only earn £20,000/year max. :/ I'm hoping to be able to switch to game design of some sort without needing more studies. For now I can only just stick with Architecture since I don't want to have wasted a whole year of university fees.
That's all I really have to talk about. I'll drop in again some other day. :p
Congrats on completing your first year! Yayy!! Must've been a big change for you since high school, huh? I remember my first year, it was definitely different for me.. ^^;
ReplyDeleteAnd as for the boyfriend thing, the ex is just a big low life. He lives too far from you anyways to actually do any physical damage. So for now, you just have to ignore him, and since you have a new fantastic love in your life, the healing should be much better! :3
It's great to see that you're much happier now! :D
Thanks! Yeah, it was a really big change in environment from my secondary school. I'm liking university a lot more though. I went to an all-girls school so there was a lot of bitching and gossiping. XD
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad it was long distance and that he can't physically do anything. Just gotta keep reminding myself that. ^^
Thanks! <3 It sounds like things are getting better and better in your life too! Your career life seems to be progressing! :D
Ah, that's good to hear that you're really enjoying university!:3
ReplyDeleteAnd my life isn't really progressing... I've only worked internship jobs so I haven't settled in a real job yet.. my last interview was a major fail! T.T
An internship job is better than no job, at least! Have you gotten feedback from your last interview? I don't know a lot about finding jobs but I've heard it's a slow process and it can take interviews after interviews. Keep trying and I'm sure you'll succeed!
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