That probably sounded like I'm a freak or something. ^^; It doesn't mean that I'm attracted to girls, want sex change in the future or anything like that. I'm just really curious what it would be like to be a guy. I feel like I can be more confident and 'attractive' as one - although that probably made no sense.
I've been imagining what look I'd go for if I were a guy at school today: K-pop styled short hair with a full or side fringe, long shirts with skinny jeans, hoodies, eyeliner to make my eyes look sharp and long, carrying my bag over one shoulder, looking a bit too pretty for a guy, cool (sexy xD) poses, and so on. I go to an all-girls school and we have to wear a skirt as part of the uniform, but we're allowed to wear our own clothes in 12th grade (next year!) so I wouldn't look off with a short haircut (although I really like long hair).
I also want male friends. I actually don't know any guys in real life apart from my relatives. What would it be like to have a guy as a friend? No rumour-spreading, no backstabbing, no you're-prettier-than-me-so-I-hate-you, no you-are-more-popular-so-you-suck, and all that stupid crap? Sounds like a dream come true.
I've always liked friendships between guys. It's sort of pure, in a way, and touching. The whole "I got your back" thing is just really beautiful to me, unlike most of the girls in my school who backstab their own friends. Plus, with male friends, you can shove each other around and wrestle for fun. xD
Those are the reasons why I'm interested in cross-dressing. Even if it's not permanent, I'd like to just try walking around as a guy for a while.
I kept randomly imagining the stuff that could happen while crossdressing in 12th grade at school. Looking like an attractive guy and getting a lot of attention (sorry, I'm a little vain ^^;)~ It all looks so fun in my head. I wouldn't be that annoying and quiet 'freak' in the corner anymore. I'd be a whole new person with confidence and strength. No one would pick on me anymore.
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I found a lot of amazing male wigs on a Korean website. Too bad I can't read Korean. D:
Oh dear, is that really what it's like at an all girl's school? That must really suck! Can't you mingle with others from other high schools around the area? You'll meet some, don't worry! :]
ReplyDeleteAnd I think every girl goes through this phase, or at least, wonder what it would be like to be a guy. XD
When I was little, actually, up until a year ago or so, I've wished I was a guy instead of a girl, but now I've learned to accept me for who I am and learn to love me for me! n.n
Although, I never thought of how I'd actually look as a boy.. hmmm... XD
It might just be my school with girls who backstab each other though. o~o; The only other school in the area is full of gangster-like students. D8 I hope so~! :D
ReplyDeleteReally? *o* I've told some of my friends that I wanted to be a guy before, and they just went "HAHAHA YOU'RE GAY :D". I swear the people in my school are all weird. >>;
Maybe I should try accepting myself too. :'D
I've tried photoshopping pictures of myself so that I have short hair. xD It's quite fun, actually! It turned out looking pretty good too. xP