A smile makes my day.

It's been a while since I've talked about school, haha.

Today at school I was feeling very moody for some reason. I kept being oversensitive and kept thinking about negative things. The last few days, I've been feeling as if my 'best friend' is trying to steal a new friend I've made in class. Maybe I'm being selfish and possessive, I don't know. She ignores me completely when I try to join in their conversation - she doesn't even spare me a glance to acknowledge my presence. The new friend broke off in the middle of the convo to say hello to me, but my 'best friend' carried on talking as if I wasn't there.

I keep feeling that she's talking about stuff I don't understand on purpose, and she turns her back on me while facing my new friend so I couldn't say anything. This isn't the first time she has 'stolen' my friends. I used to be close with two other friends, but for some reason they started ignoring me and stopped listening to me after my 'best friend' befriended them. She also excludes me on purpose whenever I'm sitting with a group, and makes me move over so that I'm sitting alone in the corner. It's really strange. I don't know what she's doing that makes people like her so much. Did I do something wrong that made people dislike me?

Anyway, that's the basic story. Today we had the Tuesday programme so we (me, my new friend and 'best friend') walked to the boys' school (if you remember from one of my previous posts). Once we were 5 mins away from the school, we stopped at a bus stop where another group of girls from our school were sitting around since we still had some time left.

A boy from the boys' school who is in my class happened to be walking past and he smiled at me so I smiled back. Then he actually stopped to greet me properly and he asked me how I was. He was just talking to me casually and he even offered me some of the crisps he was eating (though I said no, lol). :D I was really surprised that he talked to me because I thought he'd just walk past. Plus he spoke only to me and wasn't trying to score with the group of girls I was with or anything, haha. He didn't even look at them once. I don't know how to explain the feeling but it made me feel special, as if I'm exclusive. It made me feel so much better since I was feeling so bitter and lonely this morning. He probably didn't think of it as anything, but really, I appreciated it so much. Thank you for cheering me up. <3