Tapered eyelids + new makeup style

I've decided to give up on parallel eyelids. Less than a week ago, my right eyelid suddenly became tapered permanently so I'm not going to fight it anymore. The good thing is that I now only need to use double eyelid glue on my left eye. :D

Here's a picture I took a few days ago. I actually really like how tapered eyelids look on me now! :D

I don't know if you've noticed, but I've also changed the way I apply my eyeliner. I realised that my eyes kind of slant upwards - by that I mean the outer corner of my eyes are slightly higher than the inner corners. I haven't yet checked other people's eyes to see if this is normal but I thought maybe it's because of this that my eyes look so strange when I draw upward wings.

My eyelids are rather small, so I figured that I should stop concentrating my eyeliner on my upper eyelids, but instead on the lower eyelids. This makes your double eyelids look bigger because drawing on your upper lids makes it look thinner. I always look so creepy when I draw on my upper lids, even when it's just a thin line. This way of applying eyeliner is also good if you don't have a lot of lower eyelashes (or if they're uneven) like me.

I wish I had my eyeliner with me right now so I can demonstrate the difference between concentrating your eyeliner on your upper and lower eyelids, but it's 7 AM and I still haven't slept yet. Plus I have a bit of a head congestion and it doesn't feel very good. :x

I'm still an amateur when it comes to makeup, so don't listen to me if I'm just spewing nonsense. xD

On a random note, my mom ordered two wigs for me so I'll do a review on them when they've arrived. :D

Gosh I just realised that I haven't mentioned a single thing about my GCSE exams. I have no idea how I did. :x I'm so worried about the results of my physics though because I found the test SUPER hard and I'm hoping to take physics next year. D: Or maybe I should be an interior designer instead of an architect. I've sort of lost interest in architecture after I realised that it's so computer-based. My life would be so sad if I'm using the computer all day at work, and then using it again all day at home. My life would literally be completely computer-orientated and that wouldn't be healthy at all. x_x Besides, I really like dressing up so it would be inappropriate to go to a construction site in a frilly dress or something, lol.

I still don't know what I want to do as a career, really. I wish I could become a full-time blogger though, but then again I'm not sure if I can handle haters. :x

Feeling kind of down again.

Another bout of depression, maybe? :c

The weather was really great today - all bright and sunny. I should be happy. But I started thinking about how badly my 'best friend' treats me and it just made me feel like crap. I saw her finished fashion advert and I swear that 70% of it consisted of clips filmed by me, and she gave me no credits for the filming. I'd rant about that but I'm not really in the mood anymore. Oh well, just a couple more months and I could officially distance myself from her. The fact that I have French speaking exams coming up soon and a biology and physics test coming up doesn't help improve my mood either.

Argh, so worried about French. A lot of people have already finished memorising their questions and answers in my class, and I haven't even started yet. It's an official exam so my grade would affect the university I get into. I wish they'd tell us about the exam up to 2 months in advance or something, just as a warning, and the people who want to start preparing can do so if they liked. I only found out the official date of the exam earlier on this week, and the exam's in around 2 weeks or so. There's not enough time to learn so much.

I think I've been having self-esteem issues recently. Today at school I looked at my reflection and I just felt so ugly. My face looked really wide and big, my nose looked so flat, my skin looked terrible, my eyes looked tiny and I looked really stupid with glasses on. Blah. But when I got home and looked in the mirror, my face looked healthy and dewy, my eyes looked big, and my features contrasted nicely with my skin. Wtf?

I guess I have nothing else to say here. I'll try to cheer myself up somehow. Not in the mood for anything though - not even playing around with make-up. ._.