There are exceptions, of course - the people who don't annoy/disgust me and whom I actually like.
Today I was doing chemistry homework with a friend and we were sitting next to each other. We were both stuck on a question, and she called over my 'best friend' to come and help us. But my 'best friend' kept SHOVING her head in between us and putting her head REALLY close to mine (she has bad dandruff and acne, so I wouldn't want any contact with her otherwise I'd end up getting them). She usually hates people being physically close to her as well, so I felt as if she was doing it on purpose to separate me from the other friend. :\
Even after my 'best friend' had finished helping us on that one problem (though it turned out we didn't need her help after all), she continued sticking her head between us and wouldn't go away. She kept trying to answer the questions even though we didn't need anymore help. She was working out the answers so slowly too, so I had already written it down through my own working by the time she said it out loud. -__- Seriously, she was so freakin' close to me that I felt so uncomfortable.
My mom's cooking something in the kitchen just now and when I walked in, my dad happened to be walking in as well. I felt him staring at me so I looked up at him with a puzzled face to see if he wanted something and he was giving me this really angry look - sort of like the look you'd give someone you hated with all your heart. What the hell. And there was me feeling sorry for him. :\ Guess he's really nothing more than a dumb cheater.
Meh I can't tell whether he really did have Botox injections or not. When I looked at him properly for the first time in months, all I saw was a super deep line between his eyebrows because of his angry expression. He brought the wrinkles on himself. If he didn't keep making all those stupid angry faces, his wrinkles wouldn't look as obvious so he'd look younger and not need to get Botox, ultimately saving money while looking better at the same time. *facepalm* Isn't that a win-win situation!? But of course he throws it away because he doesn't think about consequences of his actions.
Pathetic people like these should be quarantined from people who just want to get on with their lives and be happy, otherwise they'd spread their stupidness across the whole globe and the human race would be doomed.
Tuesday 28 February 2012
Monday 27 February 2012
Shitty day.
And there was I thinking that today might actually be a good day. It was okay, honestly, but then everything came crumbling down during art.
In art, we were told to outline bottles using ink with the other end of a paintbrush. Everyone else did their outline in just one colour, but I blended shades of purple and blue in the line and double-lined it with a fainter blue. Then I recreated the shiny curves of the bottle by painting in parts with light yellow ink, going darker/lighter wherever necessary.
Then when I looked up to see where everyone's up to, I saw two people copying me (they were sitting very close to me). Guess who one of those people were? My 'best friend'. Surprise. She was copying me AGAIN.
The other girl copying me is usually nice and talks to me, so I didn't mind her copying me AS much. It's sort of like a one-off, you know? But as for my 'best friend'? HASN'T SHE COPIED ME ENOUGH?
I just felt so indignant.The second part of the exercise was to dab a blotch of ink onto the paper and let the ink trickle down over the outlines. I decided to trickle the ink upwards to make mine a bit different. Then my art teacher singled me out and said, "YOU'RE TRICKLING IT THE WRONG WAY! YOU'RE DOING IT UPWARDS!"
All I did was sit there silently. I heard someone snickering in the background - not sure whether it was aimed at me. I wish I could have said "Actually, I'm doing this on purpose because a couple of uncreative losers are copying me so I want mine to look more different to theirs." But I didn't. I couldn't. After 10 seconds of silence, she said "Oh, never mind, you can trickle it upwards too."
I felt so self-conscious after that, so I started trickling it downwards even though she said upwards was okay too. It ended up ruining my painting. The teacher also told me to paint more bottles even after I had started trickling, so the outlines of the new bottles blended with the trickles and made a huge mess.
While I was walking home (since art was my last lesson), I just kept thinking about how I wanted to rip up my painting and scream out every single thing that is stopping me from being happy. The 10-minute journey home is usually a time of peace for me, because I'd imagine what life would be like if I were different and fantasize about being a guy. But I was just filled with negative thoughts today, and I also kept thinking about how my dad was having an affair - a second life that I knew nothing about. When I got home, I was almost crying.
I'm probably just making a big deal out of nothing. Just a little PMS-y, maybe. I'm supposed to prepare my French speaking questions and speeches by tomorrow or something. I haven't even started yet.
In art, we were told to outline bottles using ink with the other end of a paintbrush. Everyone else did their outline in just one colour, but I blended shades of purple and blue in the line and double-lined it with a fainter blue. Then I recreated the shiny curves of the bottle by painting in parts with light yellow ink, going darker/lighter wherever necessary.
Then when I looked up to see where everyone's up to, I saw two people copying me (they were sitting very close to me). Guess who one of those people were? My 'best friend'. Surprise. She was copying me AGAIN.
The other girl copying me is usually nice and talks to me, so I didn't mind her copying me AS much. It's sort of like a one-off, you know? But as for my 'best friend'? HASN'T SHE COPIED ME ENOUGH?
I just felt so indignant.The second part of the exercise was to dab a blotch of ink onto the paper and let the ink trickle down over the outlines. I decided to trickle the ink upwards to make mine a bit different. Then my art teacher singled me out and said, "YOU'RE TRICKLING IT THE WRONG WAY! YOU'RE DOING IT UPWARDS!"
All I did was sit there silently. I heard someone snickering in the background - not sure whether it was aimed at me. I wish I could have said "Actually, I'm doing this on purpose because a couple of uncreative losers are copying me so I want mine to look more different to theirs." But I didn't. I couldn't. After 10 seconds of silence, she said "Oh, never mind, you can trickle it upwards too."
I felt so self-conscious after that, so I started trickling it downwards even though she said upwards was okay too. It ended up ruining my painting. The teacher also told me to paint more bottles even after I had started trickling, so the outlines of the new bottles blended with the trickles and made a huge mess.
While I was walking home (since art was my last lesson), I just kept thinking about how I wanted to rip up my painting and scream out every single thing that is stopping me from being happy. The 10-minute journey home is usually a time of peace for me, because I'd imagine what life would be like if I were different and fantasize about being a guy. But I was just filled with negative thoughts today, and I also kept thinking about how my dad was having an affair - a second life that I knew nothing about. When I got home, I was almost crying.
I'm probably just making a big deal out of nothing. Just a little PMS-y, maybe. I'm supposed to prepare my French speaking questions and speeches by tomorrow or something. I haven't even started yet.
Sunday 26 February 2012
Meh
Ehh, the whole affair thing sort of just dawned on me. It really is such a bad thing, actually. :\ At first I thought it was really hilarious, but now I find it kind of gross. It's true that everyone would be happier once my parents divorce, but thinking about it just feels so eurgh. My mom also noticed that my dad had Botox injections done to get rid of his wrinkles. It's just kind of sad how my dad isn't who he used to be anymore (before he had those crazy fits and all that). He's doing all the things I've never expected him to do. There's nothing wrong with cosmetic surgery - I just never thought he'd do it.
My life is such a mess right now. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow. I don't want even more drama with my 'best friend' and fake friends. I'd rather stay at home and study for 7 hours instead of spending it at school. I hate this.
I really want my parents to divorce as soon as possible. We'd probably be about to move houses and I might be able to get my own room. Then I could decorate it with all the things I like. It would be like a new start. :)
Short entry again. I just don't know where else to rant.
My life is such a mess right now. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow. I don't want even more drama with my 'best friend' and fake friends. I'd rather stay at home and study for 7 hours instead of spending it at school. I hate this.
I really want my parents to divorce as soon as possible. We'd probably be about to move houses and I might be able to get my own room. Then I could decorate it with all the things I like. It would be like a new start. :)
Short entry again. I just don't know where else to rant.
My dad's having an affair.
I swear that my life is destined to have drama.
First I rant about schoolwork, family issues, friendship problems, and now this (I guess it ties closely with family issues, but this is between my parents rather than me personally).
So yes, there you have it. I only found out this afternoon when my mom told me. I'd post more on the details but I wouldn't want my dad reading this somehow. Anyway, is this why my dad has been treating my mom so badly? Because he decided he could throw her away because he found someone else? Or because he wants a divorce but doesn't want to initiate it? I really don't know.
I'm not upset about this, actually, and neither is my mom. On the contrary, we both found it quite funny. I mean, imagine a man in his 50s and he's still able to 'get some' with a woman 20 years younger? Pretty admirable, if you ask me, but also scandalous.
It's a good thing my dad found someone else though. Like my previous entry, my mom talks to me about divorce a lot. I knew that I would choose to live with my mom because of my dad's bipolar and unpredictable personality, but this made me feel uneasy. My dad would be all alone by himself. He'd have to cope with being alone for the rest of his life.
But now that he has another woman, he can just move in with her once my parents divorce. I wouldn't have to feel guilty or worry about how he's getting along. Besides, it's not like I'd never see my dad again if they do separate. We could still talk to each other on the phone, call each other on Skype, arrange to meet, etc. It would really make not that much of a difference, apart from the fact that everyone would be happier.
Everything seems to be working out in my personal life so far. I feel like I'm a step closer to finding happiness. I just need to do well academically, get a decent job, find true friends and find someone who loves me. I don't care about being wealthy (of course, having lots of money is nice but it's not necessary) - just enough to get by would be okay. Life would be good.
First I rant about schoolwork, family issues, friendship problems, and now this (I guess it ties closely with family issues, but this is between my parents rather than me personally).
So yes, there you have it. I only found out this afternoon when my mom told me. I'd post more on the details but I wouldn't want my dad reading this somehow. Anyway, is this why my dad has been treating my mom so badly? Because he decided he could throw her away because he found someone else? Or because he wants a divorce but doesn't want to initiate it? I really don't know.
I'm not upset about this, actually, and neither is my mom. On the contrary, we both found it quite funny. I mean, imagine a man in his 50s and he's still able to 'get some' with a woman 20 years younger? Pretty admirable, if you ask me, but also scandalous.
It's a good thing my dad found someone else though. Like my previous entry, my mom talks to me about divorce a lot. I knew that I would choose to live with my mom because of my dad's bipolar and unpredictable personality, but this made me feel uneasy. My dad would be all alone by himself. He'd have to cope with being alone for the rest of his life.
But now that he has another woman, he can just move in with her once my parents divorce. I wouldn't have to feel guilty or worry about how he's getting along. Besides, it's not like I'd never see my dad again if they do separate. We could still talk to each other on the phone, call each other on Skype, arrange to meet, etc. It would really make not that much of a difference, apart from the fact that everyone would be happier.
Everything seems to be working out in my personal life so far. I feel like I'm a step closer to finding happiness. I just need to do well academically, get a decent job, find true friends and find someone who loves me. I don't care about being wealthy (of course, having lots of money is nice but it's not necessary) - just enough to get by would be okay. Life would be good.
Friday 24 February 2012
Feeling kind of down again.
Another bout of depression, maybe? :c
The weather was really great today - all bright and sunny. I should be happy. But I started thinking about how badly my 'best friend' treats me and it just made me feel like crap. I saw her finished fashion advert and I swear that 70% of it consisted of clips filmed by me, and she gave me no credits for the filming. I'd rant about that but I'm not really in the mood anymore. Oh well, just a couple more months and I could officially distance myself from her. The fact that I have French speaking exams coming up soon and a biology and physics test coming up doesn't help improve my mood either.
Argh, so worried about French. A lot of people have already finished memorising their questions and answers in my class, and I haven't even started yet. It's an official exam so my grade would affect the university I get into. I wish they'd tell us about the exam up to 2 months in advance or something, just as a warning, and the people who want to start preparing can do so if they liked. I only found out the official date of the exam earlier on this week, and the exam's in around 2 weeks or so. There's not enough time to learn so much.
I think I've been having self-esteem issues recently. Today at school I looked at my reflection and I just felt so ugly. My face looked really wide and big, my nose looked so flat, my skin looked terrible, my eyes looked tiny and I looked really stupid with glasses on. Blah. But when I got home and looked in the mirror, my face looked healthy and dewy, my eyes looked big, and my features contrasted nicely with my skin. Wtf?
I guess I have nothing else to say here. I'll try to cheer myself up somehow. Not in the mood for anything though - not even playing around with make-up. ._.
The weather was really great today - all bright and sunny. I should be happy. But I started thinking about how badly my 'best friend' treats me and it just made me feel like crap. I saw her finished fashion advert and I swear that 70% of it consisted of clips filmed by me, and she gave me no credits for the filming. I'd rant about that but I'm not really in the mood anymore. Oh well, just a couple more months and I could officially distance myself from her. The fact that I have French speaking exams coming up soon and a biology and physics test coming up doesn't help improve my mood either.
Argh, so worried about French. A lot of people have already finished memorising their questions and answers in my class, and I haven't even started yet. It's an official exam so my grade would affect the university I get into. I wish they'd tell us about the exam up to 2 months in advance or something, just as a warning, and the people who want to start preparing can do so if they liked. I only found out the official date of the exam earlier on this week, and the exam's in around 2 weeks or so. There's not enough time to learn so much.
I think I've been having self-esteem issues recently. Today at school I looked at my reflection and I just felt so ugly. My face looked really wide and big, my nose looked so flat, my skin looked terrible, my eyes looked tiny and I looked really stupid with glasses on. Blah. But when I got home and looked in the mirror, my face looked healthy and dewy, my eyes looked big, and my features contrasted nicely with my skin. Wtf?
I guess I have nothing else to say here. I'll try to cheer myself up somehow. Not in the mood for anything though - not even playing around with make-up. ._.
Tuesday 21 February 2012
My mom's thinking about a divorce.
I'm not too bothered by it, really. I think if my parents really went through with the divorce, everyone would be happier.
I haven't been blogging recently because I've had a lot of art coursework to do (I handed everything in yesterday) and because of some family issues at home. It's a long story that involves my dad yelling at me for no reason. -__-
Today, my dad told me that my mom is a witch and caused his dad's death, and made up a lot of nonsense. He even implied that one of my mom's sisters who died from cancer put a curse on him when she arranged flowers for them to celebrate their marriage. How nice. ._.
I finally had the time to edit a picture today, but I don't think it wouldn't be appropriate to post it with this entry. Kind of a short entry, but I thought I should keep my life updated here.
I haven't been blogging recently because I've had a lot of art coursework to do (I handed everything in yesterday) and because of some family issues at home. It's a long story that involves my dad yelling at me for no reason. -__-
Today, my dad told me that my mom is a witch and caused his dad's death, and made up a lot of nonsense. He even implied that one of my mom's sisters who died from cancer put a curse on him when she arranged flowers for them to celebrate their marriage. How nice. ._.
I finally had the time to edit a picture today, but I don't think it wouldn't be appropriate to post it with this entry. Kind of a short entry, but I thought I should keep my life updated here.
Sunday 12 February 2012
Selfishness
Done with the filming for my iMedia fashion advert project! On the down side, a lot of the clips turned out to be really unclear and pixelated after I uploaded it onto iMovie. D: My 'best friend' also took all of the clips I filmed as well. So freakin' annoying. It's even more annoying that I'm the type of person who just can't say no. I made a rant on TinierMe about how demanding and selfish she was being. I'll post it here:
This looks very different from my past photos - I went for a more mature/sophisticated look instead of a cutesy style. :D I've taken more photos, but this is the only one out of two that I've edited so far (the other one I uploaded as my Facebook picture, so I don't want people I know in real life to trace the picture to this blog /paranoid).
Also, half-term holiday has started, so no school for a week! Yay!
Okay, so two of my friends are coming over to my house tomorrow to film a fashion advert. I'll just call them Girl A and Girl B here.There. As you've probably realised, Girl A is my 'best friend'. Here's another diary entry with a continuation of what happened:
At first, just Girl B and I were going to film each other, but I invited Girl A because she said she didn't know what to do, where to film, who to film, etc. Big mistake. Girl A is now being SO FREAKING SELFISH. D:<
First, Girl A wanted me to be the model in her advert. Sure, alright. Then Girl A wanted me to ask Girl B is she could also film her. Sure, that's fine too. I'll ask. Then Girl A wanted me to play the role of the "ugly girl". That's okay. I don't mind. I'd feel bad for Girl B if she was made to play that role. I can make a small 'sacrifice' (if you can put it that way) for Girl B because she's a good friend, so I'm willing to accept the 'bad' roles instead of forcing her to do it.
Then Girl A wanted to borrow my camera to film. Okay then. Girl A suddenly said on Friday that she wanted to film the next day so I didn't have enough time to tell Girl B, and we agreed to film each other (Girl B was my original model). But then Girl A refused to put on makeup or dress up to improve her presentation, even when I offered to do the makeup for her. When I told my mom about this, she got angry and said that Girl A was being really unreasonable, so I decided to cancel it (so Girl B could come next time).
Then Girl A blamed me because she got told off by the teacher for not having filmed her advert yet (I got told off too, except that I didn't spaz over it -_-). In a way, it was technically my fault so I didn't rage at her.
Then she wanted to borrow my laptop to edit her advert because she didn't have a movie-making software at home. Starting to cross the line a bit here (I hate having non-family members use my laptop - it has lots of personal pictures on there and stuff), but I guess it's still sort of my fault because we're handing in our adverts right after a week of holidays (starting today), so she can't use the movie editing software at school.
Even though she could have downloaded another movie-editing programme.
The three of us originally agreed that we'd first start filming a scene from mine, then a scene from Girl B's, then a scene from Girl A's, then repeat. The sun sets quickly in the winter, so it would've been unfair for the last person if we had filmed each person's advert one by one. Then Girl A decided that she wanted us to finish filming her advert first, so she can use the rest of the time to edit her video on my laptop while Girl B and I were filming ours. Earlier on the week, she even wanted us to do her advert first, then for me and Girl B to arrange another session to film ours (so Girl A didn't need to come).
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ISN'T THAT JUST SO PLAIN RUDE AND SELFISH?
I invited Girl A so we can film our adverts together, not so that she can use us and carry on with her own crap when she's done. Sure, it's true that she's not playing a role in me and Girl B's adverts, but this doesn't mean she can just barge into my home and start using my laptop like she owned it. Then she kept saying, "WHAT'S YOUR MOVIE-EDITING PROGRAMME CALLED? DOES IT HAVE TRANSITION EFFECTS? DOES IT SHOW HOW LONG EACH CLIP IS? CAN IT DO THIS AND THAT? GO HOME TODAY AND CHECK. DO YOU HAVE ANY UGLY CLOTHES? I'M NOT SAYING THAT YOU'RE UGLY LOL. UGLY CLOTHES LIKE THE KIND OF JEANS THAT HAVE STRAIGHT SIDES, NOT THE SKINNY ONES. DO YOU HAVE A LONG TOP? YOU SHOULD WEAR THE LONG TOP WITH THE STRAIGHT JEANS BECAUSE IT WOULD LOOK BAD. ARE THEY IN CLASHING COLOURS?"
I don't know if she's doing it on purpose (she probably didn't, but still), but once I wore straight jeans with a long top. I didn't know that it was considered as "ugly clothes". :I
Turned out that Girl A didn't use my laptop (only because I told her that it doesn't convert the video into AVI format). She did use my camera though and suggested that the three of us should share the videos we filmed. Unfortunately, Girl B agreed so we went with Girl A's suggestion, but I thought it was the worst idea ever. I don't get why Girl B agreed because this would benefit ONLY Girl A, since my teacher said we're not supposed to feature in our own adverts (we must be modeling for someone else's). D:-__- I camwhored a bit after they left to cheer myself up, but I think my makeup sort of got smudged and made me look panda-eyed.
I don't want someone to take credit for my filming. I'm not great at filming or anything, but I did come up with the poses for my model Girl B and filmed from effective camera angles. I'm fine with Girl B using some of my clips because she contributed to my project after all, but Girl A didn't do a single thing. >:O She did film one scene in which I was blowing Girl B's hair with a hairdryer but she filmed it really badly, so I had to re-film it myself with the camera in one hand and the hairdryer in another.
This looks very different from my past photos - I went for a more mature/sophisticated look instead of a cutesy style. :D I've taken more photos, but this is the only one out of two that I've edited so far (the other one I uploaded as my Facebook picture, so I don't want people I know in real life to trace the picture to this blog /paranoid).
Also, half-term holiday has started, so no school for a week! Yay!
Thursday 9 February 2012
Relaxation!
Now with most of my exams out of the way, I'm finally able to relax (at least, for a while)! I still have a lot of art coursework to do, but let's put that aside for now.
Today I had another one of those stupid mini 'arguments' with my 'best friend' because she kept clutching on to the fact that she's always right. People should stop pretending to be something they're not. Anyway, this was what happened:
Me: Your shirt is really similar to (insert a classmate's name)! :o
Friend: *asking another random girl* Is she wearing the same shirt as me?
Random: Nah, she's wearing a sweater. Yours is a cardigan.
Friend: *to me* HAHA! They're not the same shirts!
Me: I didn't say they were the same shirts. I said they were similar.
Friend: Oh. (pause) I didn't say that you said they were the same.
Me: But you said "haha". -_-
Friend: Yeah but I didn't say you said they were the same shirts.
I know that it's probably just a trivial disagreement, but it's ridiculous how she's twisting her words to make herself seem like the one who's right. All she had to say was "Oh okay", then we could just forget about it and carry on with another topic. But no, she just had to drag it on.
A few days ago, there was another girl in my class who was talking to my 'best friend' about some maths project they had to do. The girl was asking my 'best friend' for help, but she wasn't really helping her much at all. Then the girl got really stressed out from the project and started crying, then she left the room. She had only left the room for less than a second, and my 'best friend' started laughing at her with other people, saying that the girl wasn't even trying and just sat there complaining about the work.
I really hate how the girl has no idea what my 'best friend' is really like, and I really hate how my 'best friend' badmouths people behind their backs - especially when they did nothing wrong to her.
Once my 'best friend' accused the same girl of copying her designs. The only difference is that my 'best friend' didn't confront her about it and spread rumours behind her back instead. A couple of months ago, my 'best friend' did the same thing to another girl, accusing her of copying her designs when she had never even shown her designs to the girl. Yes, I understand how frustrating it is to have something copy your ideas, but is it really necessary to tell everyone behind their backs, and then pretend to be so friendly afterwards?
Ironically, my 'best friend' herself had stolen my ideas numerous times before. It wasn't fair that other people couldn't copy her, yet she could copy mine. She even copied my personality and each tiny habit I had.
I feel like I'm always ranting about my 'best friend'. Seriously, she's done so much that pisses me off. I admit that sometimes she's nice to me. Mostly when she needs me and has nobody else to rely on. :\
Today I had another one of those stupid mini 'arguments' with my 'best friend' because she kept clutching on to the fact that she's always right. People should stop pretending to be something they're not. Anyway, this was what happened:
Me: Your shirt is really similar to (insert a classmate's name)! :o
Friend: *asking another random girl* Is she wearing the same shirt as me?
Random: Nah, she's wearing a sweater. Yours is a cardigan.
Friend: *to me* HAHA! They're not the same shirts!
Me: I didn't say they were the same shirts. I said they were similar.
Friend: Oh. (pause) I didn't say that you said they were the same.
Me: But you said "haha". -_-
Friend: Yeah but I didn't say you said they were the same shirts.
I know that it's probably just a trivial disagreement, but it's ridiculous how she's twisting her words to make herself seem like the one who's right. All she had to say was "Oh okay", then we could just forget about it and carry on with another topic. But no, she just had to drag it on.
A few days ago, there was another girl in my class who was talking to my 'best friend' about some maths project they had to do. The girl was asking my 'best friend' for help, but she wasn't really helping her much at all. Then the girl got really stressed out from the project and started crying, then she left the room. She had only left the room for less than a second, and my 'best friend' started laughing at her with other people, saying that the girl wasn't even trying and just sat there complaining about the work.
I really hate how the girl has no idea what my 'best friend' is really like, and I really hate how my 'best friend' badmouths people behind their backs - especially when they did nothing wrong to her.
Once my 'best friend' accused the same girl of copying her designs. The only difference is that my 'best friend' didn't confront her about it and spread rumours behind her back instead. A couple of months ago, my 'best friend' did the same thing to another girl, accusing her of copying her designs when she had never even shown her designs to the girl. Yes, I understand how frustrating it is to have something copy your ideas, but is it really necessary to tell everyone behind their backs, and then pretend to be so friendly afterwards?
Ironically, my 'best friend' herself had stolen my ideas numerous times before. It wasn't fair that other people couldn't copy her, yet she could copy mine. She even copied my personality and each tiny habit I had.
I feel like I'm always ranting about my 'best friend'. Seriously, she's done so much that pisses me off. I admit that sometimes she's nice to me. Mostly when she needs me and has nobody else to rely on. :\
Wednesday 8 February 2012
School Updates
I need to learn three pages of French words for a vocabulary test tomorrow. I've copied out all of the words once, so I've probably only rote-learned a small section of it.
I've been ill for the past week and missed a couple of school days. I also have a slight headache right now. x-x
I was supposed to film my fashion advert last Saturday (actually, my 'best friend' was going to film me). I was going to film another one of my friends as my model, but on Friday my 'best friend' decided that she was going to come over to my house the next day, so I didn't have time to ask my model-friend if she's able to come. My mom later told me to cancel the filming because she said it was unreasonable that my 'best friend' wasn't helping me out at all and is only using me as a model for her own advert. I kind of wish I didn't cancel though because it turned out my model-friend could come after all.
Today, my 'best friend' pretty much blamed me because she got told off by the teacher for not having filmed yet (I got told off too, but I didn't complain). Our conversation went something like this:
Friend: You could've told me that you couldn't film on Saturday.
Me: I did.
Friend: Yeah but you could've told me earlier and we could've done it on Sunday.
Me: I have tuition on Sunday, so I wouldn't have been able to do Sunday either.
Friend: Yeah but we could've done it on another day.
What "another day"? There's only two days in a weekend - Saturday and Sunday. My 'best friend' wasn't even willing to film after school on a weekday. At first I was thinking of making her my model instead when I didn't know my original model-friend was coming, but my 'best friend' just refused to dress up and put on makeup (I even offered to put on makeup for her). It's not fair if my advert ends up looking unprofessional and amateur just because she doesn't want to put some time into her presentation.
I really don't think my 'best friend' has the right to complain when she's not even contributing to me or my model-friend's adverts. We could've filmed without her and it would've made no difference, except that it would take less time. My 'best friend' was also being really inconsiderate and wanted to split the filming into two days - one day to film hers, and another day for me and my model-friend to do each other's. My model-friend would have had to come over to my place twice (she lives quite far away), which wouldn't be fair on her especially since she's modeling for my 'best friend' too.
*SIGH*
I got my school report back today. It wasn't great, to be honest. I keep getting Bs in English, but I don't understand how to improve or what I did wrong. I thought I did much better in my English language essay (which was basically analysing articles) compared to last year, but I still got a similar score for some reason. I'd been taking English tuitions the last couple of months, and I really think that my writing style has improved and my tone sounds much more mature, so I don't get why my grade was still the same as last year.
Anyway, I better go back to learning my French now.
I've been ill for the past week and missed a couple of school days. I also have a slight headache right now. x-x
I was supposed to film my fashion advert last Saturday (actually, my 'best friend' was going to film me). I was going to film another one of my friends as my model, but on Friday my 'best friend' decided that she was going to come over to my house the next day, so I didn't have time to ask my model-friend if she's able to come. My mom later told me to cancel the filming because she said it was unreasonable that my 'best friend' wasn't helping me out at all and is only using me as a model for her own advert. I kind of wish I didn't cancel though because it turned out my model-friend could come after all.
Today, my 'best friend' pretty much blamed me because she got told off by the teacher for not having filmed yet (I got told off too, but I didn't complain). Our conversation went something like this:
Friend: You could've told me that you couldn't film on Saturday.
Me: I did.
Friend: Yeah but you could've told me earlier and we could've done it on Sunday.
Me: I have tuition on Sunday, so I wouldn't have been able to do Sunday either.
Friend: Yeah but we could've done it on another day.
What "another day"? There's only two days in a weekend - Saturday and Sunday. My 'best friend' wasn't even willing to film after school on a weekday. At first I was thinking of making her my model instead when I didn't know my original model-friend was coming, but my 'best friend' just refused to dress up and put on makeup (I even offered to put on makeup for her). It's not fair if my advert ends up looking unprofessional and amateur just because she doesn't want to put some time into her presentation.
I really don't think my 'best friend' has the right to complain when she's not even contributing to me or my model-friend's adverts. We could've filmed without her and it would've made no difference, except that it would take less time. My 'best friend' was also being really inconsiderate and wanted to split the filming into two days - one day to film hers, and another day for me and my model-friend to do each other's. My model-friend would have had to come over to my place twice (she lives quite far away), which wouldn't be fair on her especially since she's modeling for my 'best friend' too.
*SIGH*
I got my school report back today. It wasn't great, to be honest. I keep getting Bs in English, but I don't understand how to improve or what I did wrong. I thought I did much better in my English language essay (which was basically analysing articles) compared to last year, but I still got a similar score for some reason. I'd been taking English tuitions the last couple of months, and I really think that my writing style has improved and my tone sounds much more mature, so I don't get why my grade was still the same as last year.
Anyway, I better go back to learning my French now.
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