Pretty boys and maknaes.

I don't know why but I have this thing for pretty boys and maknaes, like Infinite's Sungjong and SHINee's Taemin. Lately I've been having this crush on Ren from NU'EST (as of yesterday, actually):

He is so pretty and I love his singing voice~ <3 I watched some behind-the-scenes videos and a reality show they're doing on YouTube and Ren seems really quiet and not very talkative, which I find very cute. Though it's so unfair that when a boy is untalkative, he seems so loveable and adorable, but when a girl is untalkative, people start saying that she's weird, moody, bitchy, etc. Trust me, I know. I've always been a quiet and untalkative girl in my school and because of that, a lot of people spread rumours about me.

Despite Ren's girl-like appearance, he's actually pretty manly when he dances. His expressions just look so cool and manly. xD I keep replaying his parts in the music video of NU'EST's song 'Face'. I can't get over how cute he is and OH MAI GAWD, his version of the teaser for 'Face' was just ridiculously gorgeous. o__o

I think pretty boys are one of the reasons why I want to be a guy. I want to be a pretty boy too! ; w ; I'm still debating over whether I should get a boyish haircut or not. At first I thought I was 100% sure, but when earlier on just now, my mom said that she thinks long hair looks better on me. I got my hair cut shorter and layered not long ago (have I mentioned this already? I can't remember), and I don't really like how it looks at the moment. My head looks so big and puffy! D:

I've asked a couple of people at school whether I should get a short haircut or not and most of them said no, though they didn't give a proper reason so it didn't help. I don't think they knew that my aim is to look like a guy. In the mean time while I continue thinking about this, I'll try to grow taller and thin down. Lately I've realised how much I eat everyday. I swear I'm snacking almost every hour.

Anyway, I'm going to go to sleep or do something else. Bye bye~

Starting to have second thoughts.

Over cutting my hair. I've already had my hair cut an inch or two shorter than it used to be, and today I got it sort of layered. I'm not sure if it looks good or not. My hair looks super thin for some reason (I thought it'd give me more volume) and my head also looks big at the same time. I hope this doesn't worsen if I do end up cutting my hair boy short. D:

I'm so short as well. I think if I got a boyish haircut, I'd just look like a little kid - which I don't want. But since my hair is already so short now (compared to my hair in the past), I might as well cut it even shorter. I have hair extensions anyway so I can just wear them if I really dislike having short hair.

I want to start dieting, but I don't want to end up taking away the nutrients that I need in order to grow. I've been taking growth pills and I feel like I'm a bit taller now, but last night my mom measured me and I was only 159 cm (I always thought I was 160 cm). ;-; I was expecting at least 163 cm or something. I just want to grow up to around 170 cm and I'd be satisfied.

I still have a couple of months to think about it, because I still want to have girly hair for prom in July. xD I'll try to use this time to thin down and pinch my nose to make it taller.

More hair talk.

It's been a while since my last post (kind of). I'm almost 100% convinced that I'm going to be getting a boyish haircut - maybe by this summer or winter. I'd like my hair to look like Lin Zai Zai's:

I don't think I'd be able to pull it off as well though. I'll be pinching my nose a lot to make it look sharper. :D My mom's buying me a nose clip that is said to be able to make people's noses look taller/higher, so I might do a review on that once it arrives. I've read a lot of reviews that said the nose clips don't work, but I'm really sceptical because I've been pinching my nose with my fingers for the last couple of months and I feel that it has gone a lot higher.

I need to grow taller too even though I'm coming to the end of my growing years. And I need to slim down too so that my face wouldn't look really fat with short hair since my face is already quite chubby. @_@

Yesterday, I had a haircut and got a few inches of my hair cut off because my ends were really damaged. I think it looks quite cute, but it made my face look bigger because the weight of my hair isn't pulling itself down to frame my face anymore. x__x Oh well, I need to get used to having hair in my face/near my eyes.

Also, I'm curious how some people's hair sort of group together. Like in the last picture of Zai Zai above, her fringe sort of gathers and become thinner and thinner? I drew a picture to illustrate what I mean:

Sorry about the crappiness. xD

I want my fringe to look like how it is in diagram 1, but for some reason mine just sprays out into individual strands of hair like in diagram 2. It looks very messy, and I don't know what the problem is. D: Did they use some kind of a hairstyling product?

Anyway, I better go to some homework now (I'll probably just end up surfing the Internet), so I'll end this here.

Seriously considering a boyish haircut.

I really want my hair to be cut really short. I've been wondering whether being a tomboy would suit me or not. My posture and the way I walk is quite similar to a guy's, I have a monotonous voice, I don't mind making faces that would be considered unattractive. I've been wanting a boyish haircut for a long time. Besides, it would be nice to have a dramatic change once in a while.

I've asked some of my friends whether I should get a boyish haircut. Two said yes, three said no. My 'best friend' said that it would look ugly and disgusting. She seemed to be getting the impression that I was a lesbian or something. I think she's homophobic to some extent. I told her that two other girls in our year have really short, boyish hairstyles, but she said it was different for them because they act more girly and that I already act like a boy. Isn't it more socially accepted for someone who looks like a boy to act like one, rather than a girl who acts like a boy?

One of my concerns is whether I would look good with a short haircut or not. I'd take a photo of myself and edit a short haircut on using Photoshop, but my photos usually end up not looking like how I do in real life. I don't have a lot of boyish clothes either. I'm really short as well. I wish I had smaller breasts because they look pretty obvious when I'm just wearing a normal shirt. x__x I could get one of those compression shirts though. I'm also trying to pinch my nose to make it taller/higher so that it would look better.

I've told my mom about wanting to get a boyish haircut, and she said it's fine as long as it looks okay. Even if I end up regretting it, I could just get a fashion wig or something. I've seen a lot of really nice female wigs that I want to get, but not as many male ones.

I also really like girly things, like the colour pink and floral stuff as you can tell from my blog layout. And I like wearing dresses and skirts and looking pretty. D:

Meh I don't know... @_@